Life is good. It's nice to be able to say that again - especially with everything going on right now! We have a beautiful 80 degree day, my allergies aren't killing me yet, and I'm packing for an upcoming move! How exciting is life right now?!
I haven't been able to hit the gym this week as I am on duty - my position requires that we hold 1-2 weeks a semester on duty and available to answer any calls that may come up. Because of this, I can't take the phone with me to the gym. And of course the weather has been beautiful but things keep coming up at night so I haven't been able to run either.
But alas, I'm still getting there.
I had my yearly physical earlier this week and found out I lost 4lbs! This may not sound like a huge thing but when you've been gaining weight and no matter what you do you can't seem to lose it... so 4lbs is awesome. Realistically, it should have been 6lbs but I gained 2 over the weekend due to eating rather than thinking about a good friend who passed away.
My BFF's bff passed away unexpectedly and I've been at a loss. I spent a good 10+ years with her in my life through our shared godmothering and knew of issues but didn't expect it would be like this. So sudden and so final. And I didn't expect my body to react like it did - I was in pain, actual physical pain, all weekend since I heard the news. I haven't sleep a full night either. It's weird how our bodies can react to things.
And it's not that she's the first person close to me that I've lost. My father passed away when I was very young, followed by his parents a few years later. I've also lost my mother's parents and a few uncles along the way. It's just a very different feeling. And the helplessness that comes with not knowing what to say to the person impacted the most - I have no idea how to help my best friend. We've been through so many things over the past 18 years but I feel at a complete loss.
So I've been spending a great deal of time, especially since I can't hit the gym, walking and thinking. Trying to figure out things in my head, figure out my feelings and also learn from her and make sure I have plans set in case something would happen to me.
Saturday is Spring Break - and perfect timing - I'll be travelling home to spend time with my BFF and attend the memorial. I'll also be going home to check on my dad and make sure his grave and my grandparents are cleaned and filled with new flowers. I'll be using this break as a time to check in with those I care about and remind them why I am glad they are in my life.
And I'm planning to pack the running gear so I can keep up with my runs. I have the Fainting Goat 5k coming up shortly after we return and I want to make sure I am at my best to run it. :)
Have a blessed rest of the week and hug those you love a little tighter tonight.
I haven't been able to hit the gym this week as I am on duty - my position requires that we hold 1-2 weeks a semester on duty and available to answer any calls that may come up. Because of this, I can't take the phone with me to the gym. And of course the weather has been beautiful but things keep coming up at night so I haven't been able to run either.
But alas, I'm still getting there.
I had my yearly physical earlier this week and found out I lost 4lbs! This may not sound like a huge thing but when you've been gaining weight and no matter what you do you can't seem to lose it... so 4lbs is awesome. Realistically, it should have been 6lbs but I gained 2 over the weekend due to eating rather than thinking about a good friend who passed away.
My BFF's bff passed away unexpectedly and I've been at a loss. I spent a good 10+ years with her in my life through our shared godmothering and knew of issues but didn't expect it would be like this. So sudden and so final. And I didn't expect my body to react like it did - I was in pain, actual physical pain, all weekend since I heard the news. I haven't sleep a full night either. It's weird how our bodies can react to things.
And it's not that she's the first person close to me that I've lost. My father passed away when I was very young, followed by his parents a few years later. I've also lost my mother's parents and a few uncles along the way. It's just a very different feeling. And the helplessness that comes with not knowing what to say to the person impacted the most - I have no idea how to help my best friend. We've been through so many things over the past 18 years but I feel at a complete loss.
So I've been spending a great deal of time, especially since I can't hit the gym, walking and thinking. Trying to figure out things in my head, figure out my feelings and also learn from her and make sure I have plans set in case something would happen to me.
Saturday is Spring Break - and perfect timing - I'll be travelling home to spend time with my BFF and attend the memorial. I'll also be going home to check on my dad and make sure his grave and my grandparents are cleaned and filled with new flowers. I'll be using this break as a time to check in with those I care about and remind them why I am glad they are in my life.
And I'm planning to pack the running gear so I can keep up with my runs. I have the Fainting Goat 5k coming up shortly after we return and I want to make sure I am at my best to run it. :)
Have a blessed rest of the week and hug those you love a little tighter tonight.
